Food focus

I've been having a good long look at my eating and I've realised that, although it's 100% better than it was, I'm eating too much.

I've signed up for a month of Weight Loss Resources so that I can use the food and exercise diary. It's going to make me think about what I have eaten and be honest.

I debated this for a while. Historically, I've had lots of issues with menu plans and diet clubs. Anything where your focus on food is intensified is bad for me. I'm not good with having to think about food all the time. It makes me hungry, deprived-feeling and prone to making poor food choices because 'a mars bar is only... calories/points'.

However, I think I need to accept that some days I eat too much or the balance between food groups is poor. So, we'll see how it goes for a month.

Struggling with a plateau

I just can't seem to get moving significantly. My weight bobs up, drops down and bobs up again. I'm not overeating or making poor food choices. I'm exercising. I guess it will pass.

On the positive side:

- doing 30 minutes+ of aerobic exercises on the wii each day, including the 10 minute jog.
- getting a walk of a couple of miles most days with J
- drinking more water

I know this doesn't sound much, but it's a significant improvement for me. I was so happy when I completed the 10 minute jog for the first time (and quite surprised). My fitness is definitely increasing.

Starting weight: 325 pounds
Current weight: 291.8 pounds
Total lost: 33.2 pounds

Starting BMI - 54.4
Current BMI- 48.6

Bloaty

I have really learned that setting a target for weight loss over the holidays was a mistake. I am not going to be anywhere near the target.
I'm settling for eating well and trying to get some exercise each day.

At the moment I have PMS and feel bloaty and swollen. Let's hope I'm retaining 10 pound of fluid ;)



Starting weight: 325 pounds
Current weight: 294.6 pounds
Total lost: 30.4 pounds

Starting BMI - 54.4
Current BMI- 47.5

Off the scale(s)

I'm struggling a bit this week. J agrees that it is probably because I set myself a stupid target weight loss for the holidays. I should just take one week at a time and if I can't do that, just take one day at a time.

I'm trying to take my relationship with the scales one week at at a time as I've developed a weighing myself every day thing, which is really unhelpful. It's making this plateau feel much worse than it probably is.

I'm exercising, eating sensibly and should just be happy about that. I've vowed to stay off the scales until Friday.



From this week's new:

Would you risk dying for a diet?

On food

I've been trying to shift from the plateau I've been on for a couple of weeks. It's mostly related to poor food choices over the last weeks of school and first week of the holidays.

When I was exhausted with the end of term I was seduced by takeaways and let myself be sabotaged by a fat colleague bearing chocolate and resentment about my weight loss. (It happens.)

This week I celebrated with a few extra drinks and we went to TGI Fridays. Hmm.

So, it's back to the walks, the wii and the food awareness for me.

Why don't I join Slimming World or WW? I have been asked. I've tried these in the past and I'm afraid any 'diet' or 'plan' has me so focused on food that it just feeds my sick relationship with the stuff. I find myself thinking about food - free choices, green days, treats, sins, calories etc - constantly. This just makes me worse. I'm much better thinking about food as little as possible.



I'm happy with the way things are going at the moment as I'm quite relaxed about food. I'm making (for the most) low fat, healthy choices. I'm not banning any foods as that makes them, instantly, all I want to eat.

Starting weight: 325 pounds
Current weight: 297 pounds
Total lost: 28 pounds

Starting BMI - 54.4
Current BMI- 49.4

Still plodding on

Haven't shifted much weight this week.

But, have survived the last weeks of term without putting weight on despite a couple of takeaways on nights when we wre all too tired to cook.

Rang Mr Small's secretary at Sunderland to ask how long the wait was for an appointment to see him. Was told it was likely to be in September. Pity as I was hoping to go during the summer holidays and avoid having to make an appointment during work time.

So, set myself a target of 280 pounds by the start of the new term. It might be a bit ambitious, but I need a target so that I don't find myself sitting around, thinking about food all the time during the holidays.

Competitive (not) eating

I'm now a pound and a bit short of the two stone mark and I'm under 300, I'm wearing a dress size down and even that is looser.

Has anyone noticed? No. Actually, that's not true - one colleague has said how good I'm looking, which was a nice boost.

Just goes to show - most people don't look at fat people.

Actually, I know another colleague has noticed but isn't saying anything because she is the Biggest Loser wher I work. When I first arrived she had lost 4 stones and over the past year has put one of those back on. We usually share encouragement and moans, but I think she doesn't like the 'competition'. I hope I'm not doing anything at work to create an atmosphere of competition. I actually don't talk about my 'diet'. It's boring listening to food plans, red days, green days etc.